April 14, 2007 Five days pre-op

Am I scared? Yes. Excited? Yes, that too.

Here are my biggest fears (realistic or not):

• I'll lose part or all of my vision.
• We won't be able to make the payments for the surgery.
• I won't wake up from the anesthesia.
• It will hurt a lot.

Here are my hopes:

• I'll be able to see well without glasses or contact lenses FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
• I will look better, feel better about myself, and enjoy life more without glasses.
• I will actually make more money because of my higher level of confidence.

Hope outweighs fear, but it doesn't erase fear altogether.